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[Mar. 28th, 2007|09:56 pm]
Amber
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introducing chloe luna!

i know! i'm a lateski, right???
our little chloebug was born on march 12, at 38 weeks gestation.
she was 6 lbs and 17 3/4 inches.

my mom went with me to my prenatal exam at 11:15 on march 12. i am SO glad she was there, otherwise i would have really flipped my shit. my ma is in the chair, i'm on the table with dr russo giving me an exam, right? have you ever had the exam room door OPEN suddenly during a vaginal? i was -- well, all i could say was ummm?what? so my favorite nurse says something to the dr that i couldn't hear and dr whips out her hand and says:
you are going to the hospital NOW.
again....ummmm?whaaaat???????
protein in my urine & high blood pressure. i was pre-eclamptic.
i kept saying this isn't what i wanted, over & over. dr says:
i know it isn't but this baby needs a mama. you need to be induced right away.
mom & i had been saying OHHHH! what are we going to eat after?? the only thing i got to eat was hospital food. omg. ew.
so we walk over to the hospital & i get admitted. we wait. i call lee. who, by the way, never heard what was wrong with me. all his male brain heard was IT'S TIME. hahaha. i had to reexplain it all when he arrived. finally, ma & i were taken to a room where i got into one of those lovely back open gowny jobs. then the nurse comes to "apply" my cervadil. more like scrapes my cervix with it!!! ow! apparently, the scrubbing action makes it work better...i checked. dr shows up & gives me the rundown. i tell her i feel a migrane coming on & she asks me what i usually do for them. hahahah -- diet coke & 4 advil, i tell her! the nurse actuall gasped out loud but dr says, oh yeah, that works! i requested a vicodin & diet coke and was shocked when she ok'd it. i took half of the vicodin and SAVORED my diet coke, as i had nary a one during my pregnancy.
lee made it by three & ma went to go pick up maggie from school. she said my aunt was on her way to my house so that when maggie was in bed, my aunt would stay and my mom would come back to hospital to be there for the birth.
neither dr nor mom made it to chloe's birth.
lee brought me a dock for my ipod ( & thankfully brought his ipod, too -- i ended up only wanting his music during my hard labor) and we just kind of listened to tunes & dozed for quite a bit. then a nurse came to give me an iv. she removed my cervadil and said that usually that isn't enough to get things going and that i'd need pitocin in the iv at some point. i was still at 1 or 2 cm at that point.
i guess the hard stuff began around 6 or 7. if you have never had children, let me just tell you that artificially induced contractions don't give you time to breathe -- they are just BANG BANG BANG! & they got stronger fast. before i knew it, i was saying things i never thought i would say like i canNOT do this. remember, i wanted to do this at home! for a split second i thought, maybe i'm in transition? naaaah! i couldn't be in transition already!!?!
then the nurse came to check me ( oh good GOD, are you kidding??? ) and when i laid down, i felt the strongest need to go to the bathroom. i thought, if i can just go, maybe it will take some of the pressure off. nope.
i just pushed the baby out. two pushes. no drugs.
I AM WOMAN.
the delivery nurse was so young and fantastic. she really behaved both like a hospital nurse and a doula/midwife. she left us alone for most of it and was really into touch and sitting on the bed with me when she needed to be in there. i made sure that i told her how awesome i thought she was.
i really wanted my midwife-to-be friend erin and my mom to be there... but in the end, something amazing went on between lee & i that i can't explain with words.
both my dr and mom had the same reaction when they showed up:
HEY! no fair! put that back!

she is a little me in ways that are obvious (hair, eyes, etc) and some that are not explainable. she's been here 2 weeks & i relate to her in a way i never could have anticipated. it very well may have to do with her striking resemblance to myself, being that i didn't know the paternal side of my family save but one year (when i was 19) and have had no relationship with folks i look like.
it's a new thing for me. and i am reveling in it and lapping up every minute.
breastfeeding is proving to be a highly painfull activity this time around, just as last time. but i'm not giving up.
oh, and fuzzy bunz rock.

g'night.
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[User Picture]From: nshgrl
2007-03-29 07:42 am (UTC)
OMGZ!!! congrats! she's beautiful! omg yay yay yay.
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[User Picture]From: anutje
2007-03-29 09:31 am (UTC)
ah what a sweetie :). congratulations mama!
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[User Picture]From: sucktastic
2007-03-29 12:07 pm (UTC)
thank you so much for sharing this!!!
i was wondering when i saw the photos why you were in hospital garb as i'd thought you were planning a home birth -- i'm really glad to hear everything turned out ok.

xoox
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[User Picture]From: tinyprayers
2007-03-29 12:17 pm (UTC)
Indeed, THOU ART WOMAN.

Congratulaions, Amber!!
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[User Picture]From: thesaturdaygirl
2007-03-29 12:32 pm (UTC)
amber, you rock! kickass.

and she's beautiful. i can't wait for more pictures and updates.
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[User Picture]From: backwardslight
2007-03-29 01:34 pm (UTC)
yay!
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[User Picture]From: quiet_light
2007-03-29 01:50 pm (UTC)
Amber, she is *so* beautiful!! You and yours have been in my thoughts so I am really happy to read this entry today. xoxo
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[User Picture]From: handstil
2007-03-29 02:59 pm (UTC)
Awww wonderful! Thanks for sharing the details, I'm glad it was fast and empowering and all the good parts of labor. :) Yours is one of the best stories I've read where an induction is involved and it's great to know that it can be done with dignity.
haha your fuzzi bunz shoutout. :P
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[User Picture]From: newkiss
2007-03-29 04:00 pm (UTC)
CONGRATS!!

she is SO lovely. so lovely!
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[User Picture]From: miraclejackson
2007-03-29 04:18 pm (UTC)

s

oooooh! i have been thinking about you! i wanted to email you and ask if i was insane to opt for no epidural? baby is so cute. im so scared excited about mine!
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[User Picture]From: ohamber
2007-04-20 04:59 am (UTC)

Re: s

you are most definately NOT insane. don't get one. YOU CAN DO IT, LADY! xo
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[User Picture]From: miraclejackson
2007-04-20 03:26 pm (UTC)

Re: s

did you get one? the people i know who say that labor is so easy are the ones who had an epidural. i figure that people had babies forever with out drugs and in caves..i should be okay. im doing water labor.
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[User Picture]From: our_nest
2007-03-29 04:51 pm (UTC)
oh congratulations mama!!!!
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[User Picture]From: ohamber
2007-04-20 04:58 am (UTC)
thank you sooo much & you, too!
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[User Picture]From: jupitersiren
2007-03-29 06:40 pm (UTC)
Ohh Congrats!
And YOU ARE THE WOMAN!
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[User Picture]From: ruthviola
2007-03-29 09:13 pm (UTC)
again congrats on teh beautiful baby! and happy berfday!!
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[User Picture]From: kittee
2007-04-02 01:59 am (UTC)
so good to finally hear and see!

love to you!

xo
kittee
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[User Picture]From: corsakti
2007-04-08 05:43 pm (UTC)
wow!! congratulations! what a gorgeous little girl she is! sounds like you had a semi crazy experience and everything worked out great in the end, i'm so happy for you. two pushes, amazing, you ARE woman! good luck with the breastfeeding.. i've been reading a lot about that right now as i plan to do it too. funny, you'd think it would be so natural and easy but i am really beginning to hear about what an ordeal it can be for some. have you talked to lactation pros and all that?
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[User Picture]From: ohamber
2007-04-09 06:59 pm (UTC)
thank you!!!!
you know, it's been about two weeks since i wrote this & honestly, it is getting better. slowly, but it is happening. i went to a breastfeeding support group led by a lactation consultant on friday. i learned a ton & i got to be around other mamas doin' the same things & having similar issues. it was good to be in a room with all those boobies flying around! ha.
it still hurts some, but that mostly has to do with the size of her mouth at this point. but i've got more confidence now & that really helps more than anything. she'll get bigger eventually!

i'm glad to hear that you are going to do it, too! are you gonna stay home & work in that pretty office you all are making?
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[User Picture]From: evilzug
2007-05-23 11:51 pm (UTC)
my baby mammas

Glad you're well! :3
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[User Picture]From: ohamber
2007-05-24 09:41 pm (UTC)
how you doin', mr. zug??
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[User Picture]From: evilzug
2007-05-24 10:01 pm (UTC)
pretty fly for a white guy
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[User Picture]From: ____beep
2008-10-28 12:52 am (UTC)
i really like your birth story-it made me laugh. can i add you?
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[User Picture]From: ohamber
2008-10-28 04:03 pm (UTC)
Yes! I've seen you around in Jenny & Robina's ljs...wanted to add you, too =)
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